Before I Fall

Before I FallI am not going for these evil sshole girls on here I cringed and raged through most of the book I didn t give a rat s ss about these evil girls The worse was Lindsay to me The only reason I have the book 2 stars is because Sam redeemed herself after all of the days she relived She went back and did all of the right things Whether it was all a dream or something, I don t know but she did good in the end The very end was bittersweet in it s own way But, going through the books and hearing all of the things the girls did to other people, because they were bullies, was just sick I hate bullies so freaking much and the book has to blow my mind in order for me to love a book with them in it This one just didn t I m not going to go on and on about it I m so glad that sooooooooooooo many of my friends loved the book with the exception of a few I m not scared, if that s what you re wondering The moment of death is full of sound and warmth and light, so much light it fills me up, absorbs me a tunnel of light shooting away, arcing up and up and up, and if singing were a feeling it would be this, this light, this lifting, like laughing The rest you have to find out for yourself MY BLOG Melissa Martin s Reading List Warning Major Spoilers below including the very ending And foul language MUCH foul languageLa la la, spoilers.Still spoilers.And language to make your grandmother blush.Fuck you book Fuck You I want to drop this book to two stars for that goddamn ending But I can t because even with that fucking ending it is not really a two star book at all So it gets dropped one star DAMN YOU I knew the ending was coming This is the problem with reading the ending first well, near the beginning I think I d have been even angrier if I hadn t known, though, because I d be expecting that it would have a Groundhog Day s ending and Sam, having learned her lesson on being a better person, would get to enjoy the new, better life she s created But no She stays dead FUCK YOU BOOK I get your point, Oliver Sam s real mission was to sacrifice herself for Juliet That s what she came back seven days for, to be Juliet s guardian angel or something You know what FUCK THAT Because Juliet might be better off, but everyone else in Sam s life You don t think it will completely devastate her family Her little sister Her parents Do you know what the divorce rate is for parents who have lost a child It s not like they remember the other days Sam lived after death, either So their last memories of her will be a wholly inadequate moment before Sam ran off to school and was nice and not a brat Not a whole day together, not a dinner out, nothing big or something to hold onto AND WHAT ABOUT KENT He gets to see the girl he loves who has just stopped being a bitch and admitted she likes him die How horrible Really think he s going to be okay, Oliver Really think you didn t just fuck up the most sympathetic character in your entire book Scratch that, the two most sympathetic characters in your book adorable little sister Izzy and adorable, amazing Kent Just because we don t get to see the tragedy rip through everyone s life like a bomb and you have Sam give some bullshit uplifting monologue at the end doesn t make it okay Do you know why Groundhog Day doesn t end with Bill Murray dead BECAUSE NOBODY WANTS TO SEE THAT ENDING We want to see him ride off into the sunset with Andie Macdowell, both happier and better WE DON T WANT TO SEE BILL MURRAY S GODDAMN FUNERAL GAAAAAHHHHHH The book started out slowly, and Sam is a right proper bitch to begin with It isn t until afterlife day five she gets seven days that she begins to turn around Although the complete fucking breakdown of day four was glorious I think I m a masochist, because I love angry, self destructive, insane meltdowns by heroines, especially when they end with the realization that there was no beauty in the breakdown, that it was a horrible, horrible mess and that instead of feeling free they feel even worse than before And I especially love it when they are comforted by adorable, awesome love interests like Kent Although set up Sam was annoying though realistic, ouch , when Sam developed and stopped being so shallow and self absorbed I loved her And I loved her even for knowing how horrid she had been There was so much development, and it all rang true WHICH MADE THE ENDING EVEN WORSE You know what, Oliver I don t feel bad any for thinking your Delirium was a pathetic piece of crap cashing in on the post Hunger Games dystopian YA craze Because at least it will prevent you from DESTROYING MY SOUL for however many years it takes you to finish writing your idiotically premised trilogy a society that hates love Really Really Maybe by then you will have learned a lesson and not written such, terrible, terrible endings to what otherwise could be a five star level book I actually contemplated hurling this book at the wall when I finished it, but it is 2am and I am a guest in someone else s house and I don t want to be rude Now I m going to pretend that the ending didn t happen and Kent and Sam live happily ever after and both go to college in Boston and show up happily married at Izzy s high school graduation and everyone isn t destroyed by grief because Sam threw herself into a truck for Juliet Don t think I can t, Oliver, because I ve managed to half convince myself over the years that Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon ends with Jen Lo and Li Mu Bai Yu Shu Lien happily married with beautiful babies and everyone hanging out and kung fu fighting together the real ending made me angry for days So, Oliver, when I think about this book in the future IF I THINK ABOUT IT AT ALL , don t think I wont half believe that Kent and Sam are happily married with beautiful babies AND MAYBE EVEN KUNG FU FIGHTING, I DON T KNOW P.S If you are masochistic enough to read the book after this review, listen to Only If You Run by Julian Plenti on Days 5 7 It is awesome and if this ever gets made into a movie WITH A BETTER ENDING it has to be on the soundtrack Addendum Okay, I ve calmed down a bit and got some sleep and now am coherent and less blindingly angry And I ve figured out why the ending bothered me so much it was a cheap trick Partly because it feels like Oliver s response to those who will identify this as Groundhog Day meets Mean Girls which it totally is, but in a good way The ending seems to scream, It might be like those movies, but look how much deeper this is. The main character dies You don t see THAT in those movies, hunh But mostly because martyrdom is fiction s shorthand for redemption And, sometimes, it works see my undying love for Sydney Carton in A Tale of Two Cities But in this book it doesn t There s a quote banging around my head that I can t source Dying is easy It s living that s hard And dying was the easy way out for Sam She spent her entire afterlife knowing that she would never have to live with the consequences of her actions It was most obvious in the utter breakdown of day four, but it was present every single day Throwing yourself in front of a truck can t be easy, but for Sam I think it would be even harder for her to live out the rest of high school, to have to stand up to Lindsay next time she tortured Juliet or wrote nasty graffiti about other girls or spread rumors about how so and so was such a slut or tried to talk Sam out of dating a social loser like Kent Dealing with that every single day and knowing she had to live with the ramifications of her actions would be a true test of character for Sam Could she do it Could she stand up to the constant social pressure Could she stand up to her friends To Lindsay Could she be nice to people and defend them and not let her friends be cruel Could she risk being unpopular Or would she slide back to the easier path, staying silent, telling herself it s not her fault because she didn t start it, that she saved Juliet s life that one time, so her karmic debt is paid A better ending would have Sam not be able to return to normal until she stands up for Juliet at the party Not try to talk Juliet out of suicide in private Not avoid future consequences by dying But being there when Juliet walks into the party and Lindsay starts a chant of Pscyho Psycho Standing in front of everyone, in front of all her friends and peers, and telling them all to shut it, to stop being mean to Juliet To tell everyone that Juliet s not weird, that they need to grow up and stop being such bullies And then to wake up the next day and go to school and deal with the fallout of that And actually befriend Juliet and deal with whatever the social consequences are A less shocking ending, yeah But a satisfying one. For Popular High School Senior Samantha Kingston, February Cupid Day Should Be One Big Party, A Day Of Valentines And Roses And The Privileges That Come With Being At The Top Of The Social Pyramid And It Is Until She Dies In A Terrible Accident That NightHowever, She Still Wakes Up The Next Morning In Fact, Sam Lives The Last Day Of Her Life Seven Times, Until She Realizes That By Making Even The Slightest Changes, She May Hold Power Than She Ever ImaginedBefore I Fall Is Now A Major Motion Picture Zoey Deutch, Halston Sage, And Kian Lawley Named To Numerous State Reading Lists, The Novel Was Also Recognized As A Best Book Of The Year By, Barnes Noble, The Daily Beast, NPR, And Publishers Weekly Before I get to the review I just wanted to let everyone know I don t typically write reviews for books I love The reason being, I m not good at writing worth while and positive reviews as opposed to my uncanny ability to write crazy rants about books I totally loathe Or rather, I know I m not up to the task writing a review worthy of a book so beautiful, so eloquently written I can t stop thinking about it long after I ve finished it I know there is nothing I could say that could not be better said by the book itself, or even just a review written by someone who is smarter than me has a way with words That said, here I am, attempting to write a review worthy of Before I Fall If I fail, which is than likely, please do not hold it against the book it isn t the book s fault I m not a talented writer.So without further ado Popular girl Samantha Kingston thinks a lot about the what she s done throughout her seventeen years of life as she relives her last day over and over again In all, Samantha is given seven chances to figure out what went wrong, what chain of events brought about her death Seven opportunities to change and make things right Seven days to save herself At first glance, Samantha Sam doesn t come across as anything special Sure, she s popular but other than her superior social standing she s basically your average teenager Her biggest concern is her virginity, which she will be losing to her boyfriend that night she s freaked out but feels it s time to get it over with Other than that she s wondering how many roses she ll have by the end of Cupid Day and if she looks okay considering she didn t get to shower that morning.However, it doesn t take long before we re given a better, accurate picture of the type of person Samantha Kingston truly is Over the course of the day she cheats on a test, flirts shamelessly with her calculus teacher, cuts class, gets pretty drunk and treats her classmates like garbage Sam and her friends are especially cruel to one girl in particular All in all it s an average school day for Samantha Kingston Clearly I didn t like Samantha Kingston at the beginning of this novel She s a horrible self absorbed teenager What s worse is the fact that she thinks so highly of herself and her friends, saying I m not going to lie, though It s nice that everything s easy for us It s a good feeling knowing you can basically do whatever you want and there won t be any consequences And then goes on to say If high school were a game of poker, Lindsey, Ally, Elody and I would be holding 80 percent of the cards After Sam finishes recounting her last day in which she clearly does not come out looking good she tells us about how she died, then says Before you start pointing fingers, let me ask you is what I did really so bad So bad I deserved to die So bad I deserved to die like that Is what I did really so much worse than what anybody else does Is it really so much worse than what you do Think about it Like everyone else I went to high school with girls like Samantha Kingston and her friends And like most everyone else I haaaaated those girls So Much Who wants to read a story about a bunch of horrible teenagers No one But you know what Turns out when I was seventeen I was not that much better than Samantha Kingston Sure I wasn t a total A hole, but the truth is I gossiped, lied, cheated, cut class the works And I treated a lot of people badly peers and adults But I haven t really spent too much time thinking about the person I was in high school Not until Sam asks us, the readers, if what she did is so much worse than what we do That s why I kept reading As Sam relives February 12 we see her grow and change At first her attempts at being a better person are so half hearted, or ill concieved you wonder if she s actually trying And yeah, as the reader I got frustrated with Sam I wanted to see her change right away, and she didn t Then I remembered she s a spoiled teenager that hasn t been made to work for anything in her life Remember, it was Sam herself who admitted It s nice that everything s easy for us It s a good feeling knowing you can basically do whatever you want and there won t be any consequences That s Sam s mentality at the beginning of this story, her reality, so of course she has no clue how to truly change, to be the better person.However, not many February 12ths pass when a horrifying turn of events forces Sam to acknowledge the ugly truth Sam takes a good look at herself, at her friends, and what she sees drives her to an all time low when Sam hits bottom she really hits bottom Sam needs that low point, the chance to spiral out of control, even if it s just for one day because it is only after she s humbled we see her make any significant changes She starts to look at all she has or rather, had and be grateful for it She looks at her family in a whole new light, and realizes just how much she truly loves them She looks at her little sister specifically a sweet little seven year old who is proud of who she is and realizes she admires her little sister because she embraces the things that make her different from all her peers After Sam s low point her thoughts, her ideas become downright beautiful amazing There were many times I stopped to reread passages, and even consider them for a bit Example Maybe you can afford to wait Maybe for you there s a tomorrow Maybe for you there s one thousand tomorrows, or three thousand, or ten, so much time you can bathe in it, roll around in it, let it slide like coins through your fingers So much time you can waste it. But for some of us there s only today And the truth is, you never really know It s at this point that my feelings from this book went from like to love.And no, Sam still doesn t get things right away She still struggles, but the important part is she s really trying, really working She learns from her mistakes and makes corrections Sam realizes, despite her belief that she can t be fixed, it s never too late to change Some of Sam s changes don t come about until the 11th hour, but they do come And yes, I love how this book ends I know there are many people who simply didn t like this book because of how it ends, and for the life of me I cannot understand why Any other ending would have been a complete cop out think about it Plus, view spoiler I happen to like ambiguous endings because they give me the opportunity to think about what I just read I can draw my own conclusions I m not going to say anything about the ending, I don t want to spoil it for anyone hide spoiler I d heard from quite a few people that this book was pretty goodThat may be the most OUTRAGEOUS understatement of all time Pretty good doesn t explain the embarrassing amount of tears that poured out of me Pretty good doesn t touch on Lauren Oliver s incredible way with words and imagery Pretty good doesn t describe the range of conflicting emotions the story sparked in me And Pretty good certainly doesn t account for the fact that, once I finished the final page, I literally threw the book at my husband and demanded he re write the final chapter but the ending is a whole other discussion for which I have no time energy to get into.But aside from the infuriating conclusion, this book was out effing standing It had my absolute undivided attention EVEN THOUGH I was reading it while last nights episode of Hotel Babylon was on and I didn t even stop reading when, out of the corner of my little eye, I saw Charlie take his shirt off NOT EVEN THEN AhemSo no, pretty good doesn t exactly cover it But why take my word for itMaybe you can afford to wait Maybe for you there s a tomorrow Maybe for you there s one thousand tomorrows, or three thousand, or ten, so much time you can bathe in it, roll around it, let it slide like coins through your fingers So much time you can waste it.But for some of us there s only today And the truth is, you never really know You see It almost got that final 5th star Almost In fact, let s give it a grand total of four and three quarters stars and call it a day. 3.5 5Though I really enjoy Lauren Oliver s writing style, I struggled finding the motivation to finish this book The main character, a popular and catty high school girl named Sam, dies and is forced to relive that day several times I was absolutely in love with the story for the first couple of days, but then it felt tedious having Sam wake up and relive February 12th time and time again I totally understand why it s many people s favorite book, I just wish it was shorter Because of this, I do think it will make a fabulous movie and I can t wait to see it when it hits theaters I honestly wanted to finish this book so it could go towards my 2012 reading challenge, but it was JUST SO BORING I really couldn t care less what happened to the characters, and they were all so bitchy that I just couldn t stand reading about them any I m sure this Samantha girl will have some epiphany towards the end where she realizes that the way she s been treating people is wrong, then she ll finally move on and actually die like she should have a while ago I don t see the point in reading this when I m almost positive that this is how it will end. I had high expectations for this book for 2 reasons 1 I loved Delirium, it s one of my favorite series and 2 so many people raved about Before I fall , saying it is the best of Oliver s work I couldn t disagree At the beginning I couldn t get into the story, it was a bit repetitive, so I had to put it down and read something else in the meantime In the end I was getting a bit frustrated as I couldn t understand the whole idea of the book Having finished it yesterday I ve been thinking about it since and I still don t get it Let me explain whyThe whole story is focused on Sam s last day and her death in a car accident Afterwards she keeps reliving it, no matter what she does when she wakes up it s still Friday the 12 The main thing I have a problem with is the dimension she is in, first I was hoping it s kind of coma and she will come back to life, but no she or her soul keeps existing in a kind of a limbo and is trying to move on Final conclusion of the book is that she had to learn to sacrifice her life remember she s already dead in order to move on, where why no explanation whatsoever She just dies one last time and that s it And even tho she does change during the whole journey, and also learns all the awful things her fiend did including driving someone to suicide she still loves her because she s her friend, really I understand Oliver tried to write a book about cruel reality of teenage life and high school, wanted to pass a message of values important than money or popularity That I understand, everything else not so much The book is well written, and if you don t focus too much no the metaphysical dimension of it you might enjoy it I think that was my problem, I put too much thought into it Unfortunately I was not affected by it and didn t enjoy it as much as I thought I would. I shiver, thinking about how easy it is to be totally wrong about people to see one tiny part of them and confuse it for the whole. 4 1 2 stars Back in 2010, I read Before I Fall and immediately thought I d found a new favourite author I eagerly awaited every book Lauren Oliver released after it and yet, I have disliked every single one My dislike for her writing style in books like Rooms and Vanishing Girls made me wonder what happened Could it be that Oliver s style had so drastically changed Or was it my own changing tastes that had pulled me away from her books Returning to this book in 2015, it is still as fantastic as I remember It is truly such a strong YA Contemporary with a non realistic spin and the writing is perfect The saddest thing about reading this book again was finally understanding how much Oliver s style has changed, in my opinion, for the worse.Before I Fall is about popular mean girl Samantha Kingston and her group of popular friends When Samantha dies in a car crash on the eve of her school s Cupid Day , she awakens once again in the morning of the same day Has she been given a second chance A chance to put it right To solve the mystery To prevent her death For the next seven days, Samantha wakes up on February 12 She must learn the truth behind her unfortunate end and, by doing so, she finds herself tangled up in the lives of those she d cared little for before.The novel s strength is both in the overarching story and its outcome, and also in the details So many characters are affected by Samantha s actions and they become and developed and complex as Samantha learns to really see them Every character is handled with sympathy, turning mean girls, losers and geeks into human beings, each with their own story.It is a lesson on the dangers of bullying and how careless actions can have a huge negative impact on someone s life But it also offers an understanding and sometimes sympathetic view of the people who do the bullying It s such an interesting, multi layered story.Moving, thoughtful, and just as powerful the second time around.Blog Facebook Twitter Instagram Youtube Pinterest I hated this book, and loved it It s cruel, and frustrating, unfair, and yet it s also sad, and hopeful, and honest and authentic I m not sure how everyone else feels about their High School experience, but I despised mine You couldn t pay me to go back However, this story was so vivid, that I felt as though I could smell the grease from the cafeteria, feel the rough tile on the bathroom floor and the chill of that cold fateful night I even cringed at the hurt that all these characters so casually inflicted upon one another, so I guess I went back after all Sam is not a nice girl In fact, she is a bit of a bitch Scratch that, she is a bitch She doesn t set out to maliciously attack anyone, but she doesn t stand against it either She won t instigate the chant of psycho at the school outcast, but she shouts it just as loudly as her group of popular she witches Worse, she actually believes that others should just accept the way they are mercilessly attacked because she was once mocked in the third grade for blushing, as if blushing were the equivalent to being called a whore, who bared the goods for grass when the person at the butt of that malicious lie doesn t smoke or has even been kissed Naturally, when Samantha meets an unfortunate end after forcing us to spend a day in her insipid world, I hardly felt bad for her How sad is that A teen girl dies tragically, and I thought she got what she deserved Thus is the beauty of this book Told in seven chapters, each representing the same day, Before I Fall tells the story of a typically popular girl, who gets six days to right some wrongs Make no mistake I hardly think one day is sufficient to mend the hurt that these girls created It in no way rectifies the things that Samantha has done, but it s a start in the right direction Rather, I felt this story allowed readers to realize that there is depth to us all, even the bitches and we all have thoughts that should shame us The character development of all the characters was astounding, and the character growth, drastic though it may be, was entirely believable.

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  • Paperback
  • 470 pages
  • Before I Fall
  • Lauren Oliver
  • English
  • 20 October 2018
  • 9780061726811

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